These words are spoken, despite my love. [entries|archive|friends|userinfo] It's a glass cage so I can't pretend. [ I see it coming but I can't defend. | You cut so deep, my belief is gone. ] [ Break me. It's the game you play. | Hate me as I turn away. ]

[Mar. 5th, 2009|08:10 pm] [ Before the past is done, repeating | contemplative ] As seven ticks to eight o'clock, He rumbles down the stairs, Mother's cooking in her kitchen, father is in his chair The headline on the front page reads "the sun's coming out today", Shining down in perfect streaks, it's anywhere USA. With eyes wide open, The sky is always a thousand shades of blue. Probably broken, lost and lonely, We're all just shades of you. Can't you hear the school bells singing? Hurry, don't be late. Wandering the crowded hallways, Searching for his place. The writing on the chalk board reads, "who will be king this year?" And even though he raised his hand, No one knows he's there. With arms wide open, His life's becoming a thousand shades of blue, Probably broken, lost and lonely, We're all just shades of you. There's no escaping where he's going, A thousand shades of blue. Probably hopeless, don't you notice? We're all just shades of you. He let the water run too deep, Then he just slowly slipped on in, And when he finds the nerve to breathe, All they say is no one saw it coming. Hear the sirens, the cops arriving, A thousand shades of blue. But it's hopeless, no one noticed, We're all just shades of you. With eyes wide open, they found him floating, A thousand shades of blue. There's no escaping where he's going, We're all just shades of you. Link 2 Speaking as I'm spoken to.|Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

[Feb. 17th, 2009|10:58 am] [ Before the past is done, repeating | bored ] [ I'm not the only one, who's bleeding | crushcrushcrush- Paramore ] I'm not sure what to update, but I thought I'd at least update something. I have therapy today, but I don't really want to go. I dunno why I don't want to go. Perhaps it's because I've been so depressed. Link Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

another one of these [Jan. 27th, 2009|07:33 pm] [ Before the past is done, repeating | cheerful ] ( Read more... ) Link Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

[Jan. 27th, 2009|05:12 pm] Link Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

[Jan. 17th, 2009|09:16 pm] xxgviruskissesxx (8:49:47 PM): how do you feel about us being friends? Just curious. PurplexHarlequin (8:49:58 PM): what does that have to do with anything xxgviruskissesxx (8:50:04 PM): I'm in a weird mood xxgviruskissesxx (8:50:21 PM): and I'm curious if you even want me as a friend because I see a dead end coming. PurplexHarlequin (8:51:22 PM): I think you're being hypertensive, overrective, and paranoid xxgviruskissesxx (8:51:33 PM): how so? PurplexHarlequin (8:51:38 PM): uh xxgviruskissesxx (8:51:39 PM): I just asked a question PurplexHarlequin (8:51:42 PM): read conversation above xxgviruskissesxx (8:51:49 PM): to see what you thought PurplexHarlequin (8:51:56 PM): You jump from some stupid rp to an entire friendship PurplexHarlequin (8:52:13 PM): you don't think that's saying something PurplexHarlequin (8:52:16 PM): it's off putting xxgviruskissesxx (8:52:26 PM): Well I do that sometimes, it popped in my head and I needed to ask it. Sorry? PurplexHarlequin (8:52:26 PM): and im in a pretty crappy mood PurplexHarlequin (8:52:44 PM): so I'm going tohave to decline the conversation due to risk of saying something hurtful xxgviruskissesxx (8:52:45 PM): obvsly PurplexHarlequin (8:52:50 PM): ok PurplexHarlequin (8:52:52 PM): you know what xxgviruskissesxx (8:52:53 PM): hurt me xxgviruskissesxx (8:52:55 PM): do it xxgviruskissesxx (8:52:56 PM): =D PurplexHarlequin (8:53:00 PM): i dont have to explain anything to you xxgviruskissesxx (8:53:24 PM): it's not like you don't anyway PurplexHarlequin (8:53:25 PM): it's not my fault that you have to rely on my character. PurplexHarlequin (8:53:29 PM): interact with people PurplexHarlequin (8:53:33 PM): don't guilt me PurplexHarlequin (8:53:42 PM): if it's that big a deal or you need to me MAKE it clear? xxgviruskissesxx (8:53:43 PM): all I asked was a question PurplexHarlequin (8:53:46 PM): I'll plain out drop xxgviruskissesxx (8:53:57 PM): it's not about wesker now I don't care PurplexHarlequin (8:54:05 PM): it's not about anything else xxgviruskissesxx (8:54:06 PM): sit on the character xxgviruskissesxx (8:54:25 PM): no it's really not I kind of don't care about roleplays that much anymore xxgviruskissesxx (8:54:32 PM): I can barely do it myself on my meds PurplexHarlequin (8:54:45 PM): so then what is this really about PurplexHarlequin (8:54:52 PM): i hate it when people beat around the bush xxgviruskissesxx (8:55:03 PM): I'll make it more plain for you xxgviruskissesxx (8:55:22 PM): Where do you see us in a week? A month? do you see the drifting dead end that I do? PurplexHarlequin (8:56:04 PM): why do you care xxgviruskissesxx (8:56:17 PM): fldkgnhh PurplexHarlequin (8:56:18 PM): i dont see why you have to forecast the impending doom of a friendship PurplexHarlequin (8:56:25 PM): I actually think its a really shitty thing to do xxgviruskissesxx (8:56:31 PM): Ok. fine. xxgviruskissesxx (8:56:47 PM): Obviously you didn't and wouldn't have cared and that's what I was looking for. PurplexHarlequin (8:56:48 PM): do you want the dead end? PurplexHarlequin (8:56:56 PM): because you're instigating it xxgviruskissesxx (8:57:07 PM): as always apparently PurplexHarlequin (8:57:08 PM): no PurplexHarlequin (8:57:09 PM): ok PurplexHarlequin (8:57:10 PM): fuck you PurplexHarlequin (8:57:16 PM): Obviously you didn't and wouldn't have cared and that's what I was looking for. xxgviruskissesxx (8:57:17 PM): ok PurplexHarlequin (8:57:19 PM): that PurplexHarlequin (8:57:22 PM): is a lod of shit PurplexHarlequin (8:57:30 PM): If I didn't care, I would have said so and fucked off xxgviruskissesxx (8:57:32 PM): you have a noncaring personality xxgviruskissesxx (8:57:39 PM): what am I supposed to think Adrianna? PurplexHarlequin (8:57:48 PM): you have a passive aggressive irritating guilt indicing personality xxgviruskissesxx (8:57:55 PM): you never just answer the question either PurplexHarlequin (8:58:04 PM): I dont make mountains out of molehills PurplexHarlequin (8:58:14 PM): and look. now I'm saying things that I probably don't mean xxgviruskissesxx (8:58:32 PM): ok, now I'm about to say some shitty insulting things so I'm gonna go PurplexHarlequin (8:58:38 PM): yeah PurplexHarlequin (8:58:39 PM): same to you PurplexHarlequin (8:58:43 PM): take care :3 xxgviruskissesxx (8:58:48 PM): maybe PurplexHarlequin (8:58:54 PM): ooooh PurplexHarlequin (8:58:58 PM): another side dish of guilt PurplexHarlequin (8:59:02 PM): well played Link Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

[Jan. 16th, 2009|10:04 am] Incase you didn't know I have another journal on her for writing and and poetry and stuff. It's gviruskisses. so... add it? I dunno. =C Link Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

Meme. =D [Jan. 15th, 2009|11:20 am] [ Before the past is done, repeating | bored ] Ask any of the muses I roleplay a question and I'll reply in-character as them with an answer. Feel free to ask them anything, regardless of whether you know their canon or not. Also, feel free to also ask them as your own muse. List includes muses I haven't played anywhere yet. ( Read more... ) Link 6 Speaking as I'm spoken to.|Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

[Jan. 8th, 2009|07:28 am] This is how re5 should turn out. =D ( Read more... ) Link Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

[Jan. 3rd, 2009|01:34 pm] [ Before the past is done, repeating | depressed ] I'm not so well today. I had to do something really hard last night and cried for hours until I went to sleep. Basically I had to tell Adrianna I couldn'tsee her anymore. Which is a good thing, but it still hurt. My eyes are all swollen today and it's snowing. Goingto go do more research. -J Link 5 Speaking as I'm spoken to.|Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

Blegh. Hopefully a big update. [Dec. 31st, 2008|08:43 am] [ Before the past is done, repeating | tired ] I went to therapy yesterday. =D Which I always feel like I have no walls when I come out. Like I will comepltely bare my soul anytime of the day after that and it bothers me. We set up my goals that I need to meet until June of '09. Then I have to reapply for the program. Um. Then I got a journal, because I need to journal again. It's Orange with an owl on it and the pages are white and orange. She wants me to hang out with Michael and Megan more. >> << lol. She doesn't want me to see my ex. LOL Adrianna. Um... I'd post my goals but I only remember the job ones and the taking a walk three times a week. Lol, cause I'm fat. =D I hung out with Adrianna. We played Castlevania: Judgment. FFFFFFFFFFFFFF it's hard. But playing Cornell was fun. we also played Castlevania lament of innocence and warriors orochi 2. We beat the Wei family. Um... I've been feeling kind of shitty. At least yesterday and today. It's all good though. But I know why. It's because I have been seeing Adrianna a lot and it hurts. Soooo... I need to stop. Last night we had sex and I wasn'[t sure I even wanted too. Oh well, can't change it now even though I do regret it. I stayed at her house... lol, mistake. I can't sleep well there. I've been trying to learn romanian. I'm a dork like that. I have a few things down. Salut/Buna- Hello Buna ziua- Good morning Buna seara- Good evening Noapte buna- Goodnight Da- Yes Nu- No Multumesc- Thank You Pentru nimic- You're welcome Imi pare rau- I'm sorry Va rog- Please Scuzati-ma - Ecxuse me Pa-pa - Bye bye Pe mai tarzui- See you soon Yeah. Lol. Youtube is my friend. D= Um... I'm helping Michael with his book. Infernal residence Chronicles, but mostly his side story called Cerberus. Which is exciting. I've also checked out some books and i'm researching stuff to include into Frozen Imperial Jeremy. I hope that is ok. I hope to talk to you soon about it. lol Um... that's about it. ILU all. <3333 J Link 1 Speaking as I'm spoken to.|Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

[Dec. 26th, 2008|03:46 am] [ Before the past is done, repeating | bored ] [ I'm not the only one, who's bleeding | Werewold- CocoRosie ] more pics for you guys. ( Read more... ) Also, I finished the Cornell journals if you wanna start now, Jeremy. <3 Link 6 Speaking as I'm spoken to.|Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

Merry Christmas~! [Dec. 25th, 2008|07:55 pm] [ Before the past is done, repeating | calm ] Well I went to my parents today. I got clothing and a few other needed items. I got a pair of shoes. Haha. I also got a digital camera, just what I wanted. lol, it's pink. D= So I took some pictures of my family. I'l put them up in a minute. Anyway, it was a good day. My parents seem tolike how I act on my meds. Tomorrow Michael and I are going to get my blood drawn. My thyroid needs to be retested. They lost my blood sample? Or something. I believe it's at 3:00. xJackie ( Images from today ) Also, Momo, I need your address so I can send you a card. I need your address again too Jeremy. All I can afford right now are the cards though sadly. I promise something better next year. =C Link 2 Speaking as I'm spoken to.|Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

[Dec. 10th, 2008|06:57 pm] [ Before the past is done, repeating | bitchy ] Ugh. She seriously can't take a hint. D:| I ban her from commenting with her journal and she turns around and comments with an old rp account. Which is obviously just going to get banned. If I banned her actual journal you'd think it'd be obvious that I would do it with any account that she uses to post as herself. This is bullshit. I still don't have the heart to go off on her. I typed up 6 paragraphs and couldn't post it. I was going to IM her and I couldn't do it. UUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHH!!!!!! -headdesks- This is fucking gay. >/ Link 3 Speaking as I'm spoken to.|Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

Evil Angel [Dec. 1st, 2008|05:49 am] [ Tags | castlevania: aria of sorrow, castlevania: legacy of darkness, cornellxsoma, draculaxcornell, yaoi ] [ Gets underneath my skin, it won't die | Living room? =D ] [ Before the past is done, repeating | bored ] [ I'm not the only one, who's bleeding | Topless- Breaking benjamin ] Title: Evil Angel Characters: Soma Cruz/Dracula, Cornell/Blue Crescent Moon Location: After Aria of Sorrow? Rating: R-NC-17 Summary: Cornell could never get rid of his affliction. His curse was his cross to bear and no one elses. The other children of the night aways found him to be an annoyance for not serving Dracula as he should, so he was caught and locked away deep within the castle. There he suffered tortures and no one would release him from his punishment. Then Dracula was finally destroyed and Cornell rested deep within the chaotic castle. Years down the road, Soma came to the castle. While they never met, they soon would. Instead of becoming Dracula or being fully himself, Soma's mind split into two. Soma himself now knew of Cornell and hoped the werewolf could help him rid himself of Dracula, while Dracula wanted complete obediance from the werewolf. (Sorry, I thought it sounded cool... even though I'm not sure if it would technically happen.) ( I love your face, just get away. I'm on my knees, fuck you fuck me. ) Link 55 Speaking as I'm spoken to.|Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

Friends only, lol [Jul. 15th, 2008|05:19 am] [ Before the past is done, repeating | crappy ] +This journal is Friends Only. +I'm not adding just any one, or anybody. Fuck, I'm not even allowing most of my friends on here. Only the people I completely trust with my thoughts. +Thanks. Link Waiting, as I'm wanting to.

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